Help! I won’t be taken down

SOS…send a life jacket, a flotation device, or a helicopter. I’m drowning in inconsistency.

This is a transparent post so y’all stay with a sista.

I’ve always been a pretty disciplined person. When I get started on a task, I’m gung ho and ready to go. No one can stop me or throw me off course…except when inconsistency shows up.

I remember when I was in college my boyfriend – now husband – would tell me that I get so excited and involved in something then when the newness wanes I move on to something else. So when I would get involved and excited in a new project, he was waiting for it to end.

I didn’t think about it much then, but I think about it a lot now when I embark on a new journey. BECAUSE I’M STILL THAT WAY! Eighteen years later and I’m still inconsistent. I know, so sad. Y’all pray for me.

So what’s the deal? Why can I only read half a book these days? Why can I only stick to a healthy eating regimen for maybe 2 weeks? Why can I change a habit then get bored after 7 days?

This is something I’ve seriously been asking God about and seeking His help on doing better. All is not totally lost; I get things done. But I’ve noticed when it’s something tied to my God given destiny, my attention span is cut short and I’m easily distracted.

I’m sharing this with you because God has placed some ideas in me that require a level of focus and attention that I need to be consistent with or it won’t come to fruition. I also want to be taken seriously. Most people don’t know this about me, and I don’t want to introduce myself to the business world as Shanetta “Inconsistent” Kindred.

I’m getting myself together one day at a time by working on one thing at a time. I know that I get bored easily, so I have to spice things up and tweak some things in order for me to continue on.

First, my prayer life has gotten better. I’m not going to lie, I haven’t always prayed when I wake up and before I go to bed. I’ve made it a point to get my communication with God consistent because that’s going to be key to get everything else in line.

Second, I set a reasonable time frame that I want to get something accomplished. I’m a stay at home mom, so I try to set my own deadlines as if I work in an office. It helps me to stay on course to completing the task.

Third, I don’t beat myself up when I get knocked down. This may sound simple, but when I’m too hard on myself for being human, it’s like I dig myself further in a whole. The quicker I shake it off, the quicker I can hop back on the horse and keep riding. This has been so helpful for me lately.

Being consistent and persistent has helped a lot of people reach their success. I refuse to be a shoulda coulda woulda. I will not grow old and tell my kids that mommy couldn’t get it right and is now unaccomplished.

I bind the enemy right now in the name of Jesus. What he’s trying to keep me from is my God given destiny. He has no right to my future. So now when I feel inconsistency coming on I know that it’s something that I have to keep pressing forward, and it going to take a little more effort to push through.

I’m up for the challenge. I’m always looking to be better and do better. I don’t want to be an “old, stuck in my ways, this is just who I am” type of person. No! I’m growing to be better person. So, yes, I’m 35 years old and I still have dreams of what I want to be when I grow up. But as I said in last week’s post, I will make my dreams a reality.

Whew! I’m glad I got that out. And I thank you for reading. Do you, too, have problems with inconsistency? If so, I’d love to hear about you combat it. I could use some other helpful tips and insight. And we can be battle buddies helping each other through this war to see victory and completion.

Sending love and hope your way!

3 thoughts on “Help! I won’t be taken down”

  1. Yes I have inconsistencies, but I don’t like to admit it, lol. Mine is trying to keep the small things organized in my home. Like junk mail, bills etc. I start out sorting & reading to organize the junk to throw them away, butttt I have a pile of unread mail now that I have started but didn’t finish, because of distractions or just didn’t do it. Lol!!!! Good read niecy poo 😉

    1. Yeeesss!!! I tell my husband all the time we need to organize the mail. I keep telling myself I’ll do better when the kids get older lol. Thank you for reading, TiTi!

  2. Cousin i am inconsistent and I am easily distracted at times . I do know when I keep my alignment with God, I’m more focused. “The do what I want to do” attitude is not of God and will work against me. I may stray but my God pulls me back in!

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